l'oscurità, ma io ho una luce is an autobiographical work that deals with my illness and the discovery of inner strength and light. 

After a couple of months, I finally managed to get out of bed.

I looked at myself in the mirror, in the hospital bathroom, and saw the reflection of another woman, a stranger. 

"Who are you" - I wondered.

I cried.

In two months, I had lost 16 kilograms, which made a noticeable difference on me.

It all happened so suddenly.

Life, after 26 years, brought me back to my homeland.

I had to leave everything behind: friends, work, the flat, after 11 years in London.

I was urgently admitted to the "Saverio De Bellis" hospital in Castellana Grotte, Puglia, for 55 days.

I was so emaciated and dehydrated that I no longer had the strength to open my eyes and lift my head from the pillow.

My skin had weakened. I was helpless, unable to walk, and I wanted to die.

But I needed to find the strength to live.

I began to write a bit in english and a bit in italian on scraps of paper and napkins I found in the hospital and left on the bedside table.

I also took photographs.

They were always the same. I took them both with a camera and a mobile phone, when i could, to distract myself from the pain and find comfort.

I began to write a diary, believing that everything would turn out fine. I hope that sharing this work of mine can help those who find themselves in similar situations, where it's truly challenging to understand and deal one's own pain, accept it, and find that inner strength that allows us to reconnect with life.

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Sometimes, things don't always go as we wish, but the important thing is never to give up.

At the end of the tunnel of darkness, there is a light, seek it!

It has always been there with you.

Always.

You are light.

Shine as brightly as you can ...

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